25 July 2007
Carmelle Krauss
Hey Carrie,
Long time no talk. I miss you, girl. I have been thinking about you a lot lately. In case you didn't know, I am engaged and getting married in February. Not a time goes by when I am planning it that I don't think about you and wish that you could be here for it. We would have so much fun. I'll be thinking about you the whole day. You were always so bright and vibrant, please send those vibes and your blessings on that day.
I'm not really sure how much of a connection there is between this life and the next, but I am telling myself we can communicate clearly. At least that is what I truely feel.
On a sadder note, I have been holding on to a lot of guilt about our relationship. I completely dropped the ball with you. I have been wanting to say sorry for not being there for you more after I left for high school. I had been planning on coming to see you for a long time, and the 6th was the day that I had free that summer, and I missed you by a few hours. I'm so sorry I couldn't get to you sooner. I don't think I have ever cried so hard. I love you and always have, even if my presence didn't demonstrate it.
I was looking at some old photos and I found a post card you had sent me from Germany (I think) Your handwriting was so unique and original, I laughed as soon as I saw it, I didn't even have to see who signed it. You gave me and a few other girls little glass candies. I have searched for it through my childhood storage boxes but haven't found it yet. If you could help me find it, that would be fantastic. I always love to find pictures and things from our childhoods. Our relationship was one of the brightest memories I have of it.
I love you girl, forever! And miss you more than ever. Evanston has never been the same.
Love, Carmelle